Just One More Thing to Complain About

Complicated, jaded, confused, a contradiction, ideas, morals, questions, determined. Human.

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A girl in my school committed suicide Thursday morning at our school’s station. It’s insanely overwhelming what I’m feeling right now. I just keep wondering about whether she planned it or it was impulsive. Was she at peace or tormented when she decided? Did she leave a note for anyone?

I saw her on the train about a week and a half before she jumped. I didn’t say anything to her because she was pretty far away and the train was so crowded by kids on a field trip I couldn’t get by. So I just left it. Maybe I could’ve helped her…. If I’d have just suffered through a crowd for a couple seconds.

Maybe she’d be alive

“I’m yours as long as you want me”

           - ‘I will always want you’

“Then looks like I’m forever yours doesn’t it now”

I love giving but I’m bad at receiving
The truth is, I prefer to be the one bleeding
But I’m a paranoid that stays between play and work
Cautious and aware, because I’m afraid of being hurt

—Atmosphere, If I Was Santa Claus (via sdotbailey)

  • him: babe, hey guess what?
  • me: what?
  • him: I get to spend all day with you as soon as you get out of school
  • me: n.n I'm very much looking forward to tomorrow
  • him: So am I :) I can't wait to see your beautiful face
  • me: I can't wait to kiss yours
  • him: <3 I always kiss you goodnight, even if it's in my dreams at least